One night while I was in the prison, almost 6 months at that point actually, a peculiar thing occurred. It still freaks me out to this day how it happened. I woke up suddenly from a fairly deep sleep; the deepest sleep possible all things considered. It literally was like snap and I woke up.
I laid there for a bit as a random poem literally flashed into my mind. I really, really didn’t want to move knowing that the second I did I’d be miserable trying to get settled again without waking anyone.
But I had to get it wrote down before I forgot it, and I’d have to be quiet as a mouse getting out my writing supplies. As I laid there this poem kept intensely nagging at me. I knew this was one of those rare moments in life when you receive something amazing and precious, and even a little bit divine.
I say divine because these words were only given to me; and I was just the vessel to share it. I knew for sure if I didn’t write them down at that very moment I’d lose it forever! So I very quietly got paper and pen and began to write down the poem just as it was given to me, exactly as I heard it, word for word, in the very pale glow of the night in the dorm……
25 October 08 / midnight
I was broken into pieces; like being pinned between car and tree.
My heart was bleeding out all my love; my soul literally fading out of me.
If you’d seen me in that condition you’d have thought I’d never live.
But what no one could see, not even me, was the miracle of me learning to forgive.
Just as all the life I had left was almost completely gone,
I heard my Savior and My God calling me back,
“No, wait my child, you’ve not sung your last song”
Then “There’s still so much more for you to do, but that will come in time.
No brokenness is too great for Me sweet precious child of Mine!
Right here, right now, its time to heal as I embrace you in my love.
So close your eyes, rest in me, and let Jesus hold you up; as I heal you from heaven above”
It was as though the pain wasn’t happening to me;
As though it wasn’t my body, heart and soul feeling crushed between car and tree,
Instead I could feel the sweet, wonderful grace of God miraculously beginning to set me free.
As I closed my eyes I realized I’d been given another chance.
I’d live to love again, hold my children, and with my husband I would dance.
I’m healed now in every way, that was almost a year ago.
Anyone who sees me now would never have a way to know,
The condition I once was in, as now my new life began,
With my eyes on the cross as I go!
But the proof of it is that I survived at all after being broken up like that.
Because without the mighty hand of God theres no way I could’ve ever made it back!!
So believe me as I tell you there really is hope for ANYONE!
That hope is in God’s love for you and in His only risen Son!
The only thing required is that you make a simple choice.
So Just reach out to Him, He’s always there, and cry out in your loudest voice;
“My God, My Savior, please rescue me” and then to you HE WILL RUN!!
……….Then just let Him hold and heal you, feel His amazing grace,
Because now your new life too has just begun!……………